Im up against the window
I could feel.. I could see .. all the memories come back ..
I can see the world..again
I can hear your voice again
Like you never left ..
I can feel the build up in back of my throat ..
I can feel the cry.. Coming
I feel like I exsist again ..
“I went to a party sober tonight
knowing you would be there;
I did not paint my face, put on heels, or wear a dress
because I wanted so badly for us to see each other clearly
You asked me why you were the last person
that I said hello to.
You looked at me twice tonight.
I want you to know that you were the only person
in that entire house to whom I owe zero apologies.
The weight of how I felt about you all those years
seemed heavier to me tonight than all the weight I lost
trying to make you forgive me in the first place.
I do not need your forgiveness.
I am no longer sorry for not being enough for you
and I will not apologize for ever being too much.
I know you think you’ve outgrown me, and yet
I’m not the one who showed up in his self imposed high school uniform: the pink polo, khaki shorts, and a DUI.
Loser.”—“Loser”, Kim Rhodes (via adderalldust)
“Now all you can do is wait. It must be hard for you, but there is a right time for everything. Like the ebb and flow of tides. No one can do anything to change them. When it is time to wait, you must wait.”—Haruki Murakami/ The Wind Up Bird Chronicle (via vous-trouvez)